Libraries

I’ve not made time for a lot of reading lately, but I’ve always loved books and libraries. (Speaking of, who goes to the actual library these days? It’s been some time for me, but I hope they don’t become obsolete! They’re so relaxing.) It’s a dream of mine to have a space brimming with books, comfy leather chairs, and nice-smelling candles. And I dream of having a nook specifically designed for reading, like the ones you see beneath staircases or tucked in a corner.

When I think of books, I think of fall. I’ve been thinking of the season a lot lately, and the feeling it brings. Thoughts of apple cider, socks, and throw blankets haven’t been too far from my mind 🙂

But for the moment, I’ll enjoy the hot weather we’ve been having! Summer goes by too fast as it is.

Healthy Dose of Thought

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Sometimes starting a blog post is a very hard thing to do. It might take five minutes for me to write the first sentence. And sometimes the first sentence is all I get.

I’m not much of a writer. My brain is filled up with thoughts, ideas, feelings, insecurities, and a whole bunch of nonsense. I can scarcely filter out what I want to say. It’s hard to communicate the inner workings of my brain in a way that people can understand.

Anyone else feel that way?

With anything I do, my inner critic is up to the challenge to discount any talent I may have. I’ve been feeling that a lot lately. (And, just to clarify, I’m not saying this to fish for compliments/praise/etc. I’m just rambling, like I do a lot!) I need to stop having such high expectations for myself. I constantly compare myself to others and (like the quote above) it kills my inspiration and drive to do anything.

I was listening to Kendyll Hillegas talk about self-doubt and she perfectly summed up what I was feeling (with a bit of paraphrasing): comparison is the death of creativity.

When I do look at other artists’ work, I often feel very inspired and motivated to create work that is amazing like theirs, but when I don’t create a masterpiece, the vicious cycle of comparison begins.

In hindsight, the comparison isn’t relevant, because my style of drawing is so different, and even my experience is so limited. It’s like comparing apples and oranges.

So if you take anything away from this rambling, I’d say to be kind to yourself. Give yourself a break from the constant pressures of social media, perfectionism, and your inner critic.

Hope this helped you out! I know it made me feel better 🙂

 

 

 

I graduated! (Finally)

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It’s graduation, guys! After thirteen years of school, I’m done. Just like that! It’s so weird that I’ve met this milestone in my life. Remember when it seemed so far away? That time went by so fast.

I’m not sure exactly how I feel. It’s surreal, maybe, because after so many years of striving for good grades, studying, writing (long) English papers, and completing assignments, it’s done today.

I was visiting with one of my teachers a couple days ago, and I told her I do not find personal fulfillment in getting good grades anymore. It’s changed so much since I was fifteen. School used to be what I lived and breathed.

It doesn’t matter as much. In the real world, no one cares if you got straight As in high school, if you were the quarterback on the football team, if you won three state championships in volleyball, etc. It doesn’t matter.

Sure, those accomplishments are good for personal growth and help boost our fragile teenage self-esteem.

But high school is just four years out of your life. Those four years do not define who we are. We’re just beginning our adult life!

So I hope each person looks back on high school with fond memories, and enjoyed that (mostly) carefree time.

Because watch out! Adult life is about to throw some hefty responsibilities in your face 🙂

Just kidding (kinda)!

 

 

 

I Love Simple Things (Like Laundry)

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This is one of the few times in my life I’ve said I love laundry. And the reason is likely because of my nostalgia-loving brain and idealistic goals.

I just got finished cleaning my room, doing laundry (hand-washing the delicate pieces, haha!), and painting with watercolor. I’m so domestic, wow.

I’ve probably said this before, but I like the idea of being a good housewife and having a nice, orderly life. It feels good to clean and organize. And I don’t entirely object to the thought of being a stay-at-home mother of a few kids 🙂

I know, all of the modern thinkers out there are gasping at that confession.

That’s alright, though. I think it’s kinda wonderful people don’t have the same goals and interests; life would be boring if we did!

Trip to California

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I’m back from California after a good five-day trip! It felt so good to relax and not have to worry about work or school or *graduation*! (Yes, it really is happening in about six days! I can’t wait!)

We stayed in Huntington Beach at a little rinky-dink motel, which was clean, but had some pretty outdated furniture 🙂 Eating Cinnabon rolls for breakfast was pretty good, even though it gave me a bellyache. Haha!

The weather was…not great. It was actually sunnier back home! They call it the “June gloom” when California gets days upon days of 60 degree fog. Next time I’ll know when not to go!

But of course, the weather didn’t ruin the trip! I had so much fun laughing with my friends and chatting and eating and shopping (I got some vintage finds).

If you’re visiting the Huntington Beach area, go to Sancho’s Tacos. It’s amazing. I got the HB Combo with Yardbird tacos twice, with Arnold Palmer to drink. Yum.

These illustrations I’m sharing today were inspired by some pictures I took while in California. I actually love painting from my own photographs because the search isn’t so hard! I think I’ll do more of that in the future.

A few more notes for you…

  • Uber is very convenient (but can definitely add up!)
  • Seeing all of the old cars (like the VW bus above) is such a delight!
  • The first illustration is of a lifeguard stand, just in case you didn’t know 🙂

I am thinking of summer and loving it!

Portrait Challenge 1/10 (Babies!)

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Well, that day has come.

I’ll be doing a portrait challenge to improve my illustration skills and techniques. I struggle with using skin colors, especially when painting shadows and highlights. Facial proportions are so different between adults and babies, so I want to learn more about that. Eyes are another struggle of mine…they convey so much. Just a slight change in the eyes can ruin a picture!

Today is babies. It sounded like a good idea to start from the beginning, literally.

Babies are so precious. Perks of having a big family…there are always babies around! I actually got the inspiration to paint the last baby from a picture of my niece. She’s a perfect model.

Hope you guys enjoy this challenge! I’m sorry I can’t commit to a 30 day challenge (or *gasps* 100 day challenge!). Plus, I think you might get bored.

It’s almost summer!

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It’s me again. I’ve been MIA lately…I’ve been ruminating a lot 🙂

But back to the subject at hand…in the PNW, we’re getting pretty excited to see sunshine in our weather forecast, especially since we’ve had the second rainiest season since 1999! You could say we want to break out our sunbathing gear and add some color to our pasty-white legs!

This lovely lady modeling the swimsuit is inspired by me *blushes*.

I’m being serious. I ordered the top from LimeRicki (and I got it on discount! Score!) and it arrived today! Now I am waiting patiently for the bottoms to come.

For a while, I’ve been debating on whether I should invest in a new swimsuit, and lo and behold, I finally broke down and bought one. I’m going to California in two weeks and you have to have a cute swimsuit if you’re going to be in the sun 24/7! California…haven’t been there before, but I’m looking forward to it! Beaches, sunshine, palm trees, etc. Senior trip goals, if you ask me!

Anyway, back to swimsuits.

I’m just an average girl, with an average body (let’s face it…I could stand to lose a few). But I’m trying to tell myself that it doesn’t matter what type of body I have; what matters is what is inside. That is one hard piece of advice to take.

Especially when swimsuit season rolls around.

I can get so caught up in wanting the perfect body, but what for, I ask? So I can look sexy in a swimsuit? So I can be more physically attractive? If the answer is yes, then I don’t think that is such a good thing.

Yes, I do want to appear decent (okay vanity, a little bit more than “decent”) but when it comes to being attractive, it is good personality and character that makes one attractive. And I want people to like me because of my nature. I don’t want my relationships to be based off of superficial and material things.

Capiche? 🙂

That’s a lot of rambling; I apologize if you got a little foggy-brained!